Today I’m in bed. It’s a hard thing to admit as a health professional, as most of us in this industry worship the virtues of wellness, vitality and inspiration. Not only am I in bed but I have a cold, have devoured the complete behind-the-scenes takes of The Hobbit (can’t wait for the movie!), ate icecream even though I wasn’t hungry and have not achieved even one item on my to-do list.
It’s not easy when you’ve worked so hard to create harmony in your life and you end up drained or disheartened or sick. In these times there is always a little voice inside of you that ponders whether you’ve really got what it takes to live your heart desires. If you open up the ancient doorway to that voice, it can begin a flood of old hurts and victimhood stories.
Let’s not go there.
Your time of overwhelm and despondency is also a time for great consolidation and connection to your values. Are we true to our dreams even when we can’t see/feel/touch/taste/smell them…..yet? We can often romanticise about how our world should look and we expect it to look this way all of the time. When life becomes REAL – sometimes edgy, dark or chaotic – we must dig deep into our inner reserves to keep us steady and hold fast to those things we desire most. There is nothing sweeter than a dream realised after a journey there and back, with scraped shins and tired muscles, into the pit of the fire and out again.
As I look around my room, with clothes on the floor, feeling a body that is heavy and cumbersome, I harbour an inner conflict because this is not what I thought my dreams looked like. It’s hard to steady myself. But there is also a flowing truth within me, it’s literally like I can feel my hard toil laying the foundations for endless golden moments. The dream creation process is the art of inner alchemy, where you must transform every old way of being to allow your authentic Self clear passage. Sometimes this alchemy looks like taking the time to cry or sleep or disconnect or feel shitty as you release your wounds and make way for the new.
When I completely accept where I am I can acknowledge that this is what my dreams look like, evolving before my eyes. It makes me feel less ashamed of how I am being perceived as a health professional, because its not really about that. The work that lights me up is about inspiring individuals to unearth the authenticity and joy of who they are. That means that I have to accept and honour my authentic moments – even the ones my inner critic doesn’t approve of. I have to choose the currency of my soul rather than the reason of my ego. Every time.
It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing. Oriah Mountain Dreamer
If I could explain the soft connection that I have to my truth at the moment, it would look like this:
1. Hold my form
A wise sage will set an intention and not let it waver. By doing so he creates the conditions for the intention to grow and evolve, he holds a space for the universe to manifest within. If the infrastructure of your dreams is loose and conditional, every storm will knock it down.
To me, holding my form is the act of saying “I acknowledge that what I am experiencing right now is painful, but I will not waver from who I am and the understanding that who I am has an unfolding destiny of brilliance.”
When you do so you let the world know that you intend to weather any storm, holding a true course to your North Star. You role-model the attributes of any great creator in our world – great vision, great resilience AND great effort.
To kindle your vision you may need to step outside, out of the house or office, back to nature, into a soulful book, within your heart, out of your head – whatever works for you. But know that you must do it now. Let it be the top of your to-do list, the remedy to your overwhelm.
2. Be very aware
Next, develop a highly-tuned and multi-dimensional perception. If I had given space to my intuition last week, I would have known that my stress levels were rising, my blood sugar regulation was funky (yes, I don’t normally crave sugar at 3pm on the dot every day) and I needed to realign my position. I didn’t, so I ended up pushing myself into a dead-end street, seemingly a 1000 steps off track with a run-down immune system.
Perception is a muscle that responds well to exercise. All you need is a few quality moments each day to feel where you are. Not think, feel baby. And when you feel heavy, go with it, let the heaviness move and shift and release so you can melt into the symphony of being centred. When you are scattered and your energy is fragmented, you won’t be able to think your way out of anything. This is where your awareness must be given complete freedom, and a quiet mind, to do its magic.
3. Let softness in
Then you may let go, surrender, be soft. Life has a wisdom that our minds can’t always understand. It is a naïve creature who believes it can control the unfoldment and the outcomes of your world. The beauty is in being able to bond with the universe in your vision, to root deeply within it, and then to become completely soft to allow yourself to change course at life’s request. Maybe you’re stuck because you’re not allowing yourself to change?
The trials and tribulations of where you are right now are guiding you to delights beyond your wildest imagination.
Letting go always needs to include some time of rest and relaxation. You cannot give in the way we desire if you are exhausted. If you find yourself internally vibrating, unable to relax as you watch that sunset or drift off to sleep, then your adrenals are over stimulated. They’ve been running and running away from all real and perceived threats.
Rest is crucial because your dreams require hard work. The idea of surrender is not to give up the work, just to give up the fight.
For the time being, just in this moment, let yourself know that you are completely safe and it is safe to rest.
And when all is said and done, don’t stop dreaming.
I dream that I know, really believe, that each moment in my life is my dream unfolding. When the art of living my life, full-heart and full-spectrum is as much about the shitty moments as it is about the blissful ones. I dream of letting life move through me in a way where my mind gets out of the way and lets my heart guide. I dream of being seen in this authentic way and knowing that I am complete within. I dream this for you aswell.
If you’ve ever felt overwhelmed or sick or depressed, share with us in the comments below what your strategies are for pulling yourself out of a rut and staying true to your heart.